허준

" 그러나 그들은 억압을 받을수록 더욱 번성하고 더욱 널리 퍼저 나갔다.
이집트인들은 이스라엘 자손들을 두려워하게 되었다."
- 탈출기 1:13

So tomorrow is the day that my new bible study group meets for the first time. This is part of Bible Life ( or "청년성서모임" in Korea) that I've been part of since high school. This time, I am studying Exodus, and while preparing for tomorrow's meeting, I found a verse that stood out. The more you suppress them, the stronger they came to be. That also reminded the infamous quote of Neitzche:

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

Sounds like something that could be said in the army, but we can't help but nod our head to its very mastery. I can relate to this quote very much these days, especially because my research is going more slowly than I'd like it to be. And the person who is most unhappy about this speed (take a wild guess) has been very "harsh" in my presence. This exact English word was used by him.

What do you picture my reaction would be to such pressure? Yeah right, I am deathly afraid and stressed. But surprisingly and very fortunately at the same time, his comments fuel my mornings even more so and I am motivated more than ever to dedicate my time to my research. I mistakenly thought that this energy was a magic spell that I put on myself to avoid criticism, but I notice now that through this challenging time, I can realize and vision my dream more vividly. In other words, I am willing to--or I'd be glad to--pass this tunnel to see the brighter light.


장애물은 우리가 원하는 것이 얼마나 간절한지를 느끼게 해주는 도구라고 하였다 :) 그리고 그 간절함 뒤에 오는 성취감은 또 얼마나 달콤할까? 생각만 해도 정말 폴짝폴짝 뛰고 싶어진다.



Picture title: "Sleepless Nights With Ochem"
일년 내내 유기화학에 대적하면서도 난 그런 마음가짐 (+표정)이었다.
그래- 네가 죽나 내가 죽나 한번 해보자구 (불끈!)