장우영과 윤두준은 몇살인지 검색해보고 갑자기 부끄러워져서 누나는 자러간다...
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Thursday, December 30, 2010
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
something I thought about...
Friendship requires a great waste of time and idleness.
"Are you feeling okay? [regarding the previous posting]"
I interpreted the word "waste" as a very impersonal and stringently objective point of view. Subjectively, what's special about a sincere friendship is that our deeper heart wills to deplete valuable resources, and we never feel like it's a "waste" because it is highly enjoyable. Without any meanings attached to it, it's a "usage" anyhow.
I got this quote from a very compassionate and extroverted friend of mine. At first, I was surprised and a bit repelled by the wordings, but the overall realization is not pessimistic or cynical at all. (That friend was actively wasting time with me at the moment too!)
"Are you feeling okay? [regarding the previous posting]"
Of course! No sudden burst of misanthropy or pessimism here :)
I interpreted the word "waste" as a very impersonal and stringently objective point of view. Subjectively, what's special about a sincere friendship is that our deeper heart wills to deplete valuable resources, and we never feel like it's a "waste" because it is highly enjoyable. Without any meanings attached to it, it's a "usage" anyhow.
I got this quote from a very compassionate and extroverted friend of mine. At first, I was surprised and a bit repelled by the wordings, but the overall realization is not pessimistic or cynical at all. (That friend was actively wasting time with me at the moment too!)
something to think about...
Friendship requires a great waste of time and idleness.
That's why a true one means a lot.
That's why a true one means a lot.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Abba sings "winner takes it all"
누구나 사랑 받고 싶고
누구나 관심 받고 싶고
누구나 인정 받고 싶어 한다.
하지만 내가 가장 사랑 받고, 가장 관심 받고, 가장 인정 받았을 때는
생각해보면
내가 중심을 잡고 나의 길을 묵묵히 가고 있을 때였다.
손에 꼭 쥘래야 잡을수 없는 그들은 사실 자연스럽게 나를 따라 오는 그런 건가 보다.
오히려 그것들을 쫓다가
더 초라해 지는 내 모습을 본 적이 있다.
No one wants to be rejected.
I guess one way to avoid rejection is to not put yourself into that chasing position in the first place. ("rejection" in related contents. Not all rejections are subjected to fear)
누구나 관심 받고 싶고
누구나 인정 받고 싶어 한다.
하지만 내가 가장 사랑 받고, 가장 관심 받고, 가장 인정 받았을 때는
생각해보면
내가 중심을 잡고 나의 길을 묵묵히 가고 있을 때였다.
손에 꼭 쥘래야 잡을수 없는 그들은 사실 자연스럽게 나를 따라 오는 그런 건가 보다.
오히려 그것들을 쫓다가
더 초라해 지는 내 모습을 본 적이 있다.
No one wants to be rejected.
I guess one way to avoid rejection is to not put yourself into that chasing position in the first place. ("rejection" in related contents. Not all rejections are subjected to fear)
그래..묵묵히..저 빌딩에...끙
Is that white thing going to happen on Christmas? :)
Is that white thing going to happen on Christmas? :)
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Dejavu, moni!
인생의 순환적임에 나는 가끔 깜짝깜짝 놀랄 때가 있다.
Upon my fifth meeting with Fr.Denis, my spiritual director, I was able to tell him that I am all-embracing of optimism and peace in mind. He says that I have always been.
He sometimes brings up the memories from when we first met. I was in high school back then, and he still introduces me to others every time with the exact words "the girl who I was affected by (너무 예뻐서 내가 감동했던 '아이'; and he always stresses that I was only a GIRL)." I know what you,probably my acquaintance, might be thinking in your head. Overrated. I know. But the point I want to make here is really that,
the cyclical nature of Life amazes me.
I've been wanting to put that out there--sometime, somewhere very soon, because I've been seeing that in every corner of even middle (soon to be late) twenty's life. Fr.Denis and my 인연 ("human connection") is one case out of many.
Unfortunately, neither he nor I remember what it was about my story that "touched" him so much. But I do remember so vividly the talks we had under the Big Bear Mountains' sky, the first confession where I poured out my fears and tears, and mostly, the verses from Romans 8 that he recited for me. ("You, however, live not by your natural inclinations, but by the Spirit, since the Spirit of God has made a home in you.") He's marked the beginning and the highlight of my spirituality. That is, the highest of me.
Back in Korea (which is also very cyclical), I reach the news that he is at Sogang University: 3 subway stops away, a 10-minute ride. Something very desperate and glad rises from me, and even before I know it, he is already updated on my inexplicable movings post-2004. Now, when I've seen the lowest of it, he is back in my [spiritual] field of vision, accompanying me through the walk of my journey. God must love me or somethin'.
Because Life draws on circles, we are bound to return.
And return is good;
second time we are more cognizant, not to mention we're also grown.
But as someone said, maybe we can aim for spirals instead of circles, because we don't want to feel like we are marching in place. Advancing--indeed-- is better.
아무리 그래도 그렇지, 제자리 걸음은 싫잖아 ;)
Upon my fifth meeting with Fr.Denis, my spiritual director, I was able to tell him that I am all-embracing of optimism and peace in mind. He says that I have always been.
He sometimes brings up the memories from when we first met. I was in high school back then, and he still introduces me to others every time with the exact words "the girl who I was affected by (너무 예뻐서 내가 감동했던 '아이'; and he always stresses that I was only a GIRL)." I know what you,probably my acquaintance, might be thinking in your head. Overrated. I know. But the point I want to make here is really that,
the cyclical nature of Life amazes me.
I've been wanting to put that out there--sometime, somewhere very soon, because I've been seeing that in every corner of even middle (soon to be late) twenty's life. Fr.Denis and my 인연 ("human connection") is one case out of many.
Unfortunately, neither he nor I remember what it was about my story that "touched" him so much. But I do remember so vividly the talks we had under the Big Bear Mountains' sky, the first confession where I poured out my fears and tears, and mostly, the verses from Romans 8 that he recited for me. ("You, however, live not by your natural inclinations, but by the Spirit, since the Spirit of God has made a home in you.") He's marked the beginning and the highlight of my spirituality. That is, the highest of me.
Back in Korea (which is also very cyclical), I reach the news that he is at Sogang University: 3 subway stops away, a 10-minute ride. Something very desperate and glad rises from me, and even before I know it, he is already updated on my inexplicable movings post-2004. Now, when I've seen the lowest of it, he is back in my [spiritual] field of vision, accompanying me through the walk of my journey. God must love me or somethin'.
Because Life draws on circles, we are bound to return.
And return is good;
second time we are more cognizant, not to mention we're also grown.
But as someone said, maybe we can aim for spirals instead of circles, because we don't want to feel like we are marching in place. Advancing--indeed-- is better.
아무리 그래도 그렇지, 제자리 걸음은 싫잖아 ;)
Thursday, December 16, 2010
close to finishing my plate
I still have a lot of room to grow
and i can't fully explain how thrilled i am to see what will come out of this me.
December thoroughly entertains me with free floating thoughts and realizations,
but it seems like i still can't..i just can't...get myself to
WRITE!
and i can't fully explain how thrilled i am to see what will come out of this me.
December thoroughly entertains me with free floating thoughts and realizations,
but it seems like i still can't..i just can't...get myself to
WRITE!
Friday, December 10, 2010
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