He responds:

A poor widow came and put in two small coins, the equivalent of a penny.
Then he called his disciples and said to them, 'In truth I tell you, this poor widow has put more in than all who have contributed to the treasury; for they have all put in money they could spare, but she in her poverty has put in everything she possessed, all she had to live on.'

- Mk 12:38-44

It must be that the world's greatest teachers have rulers of different scales.
or malfunctioning calculators.
Or it could also be that they talked amongst themselves and reached a general consensus to deny modern education in math, because against all we know about 1,2,3's, we hear that having less is more, and more is less.

As it's apparent in my last entry, I was greatly troubled to see human brains functioning in a quantitative system. Some of my close friends shared their thoughts on this issue (♡), and God has responded to my concerns too, in his subtle but powerful way. He tells me through the Gospel that I don't need to do any calculations myself. Foremost and all, other people--should keep their hands off.
He himself does it all.
Only He knows how much is in that penny, and that's all that matters in my universe.



내 진심이 그들에게 안보일때; 나를 이해하지 못할 너.
쿨한척 하다가도 억울한 생각에 마음이 축축해질때면 다 괜찮다, 그 소리를 찾았다.
내속에 내가 너무 많다는 "가시나무"의 가사가 와닿는건 내 마음대로 세상을 조종하고 싶은 욕심때문이겠지.
내안을 비워야 고요속에서 목소리가 들릴테니깐.

요 몇달간은 명상보다도 묵상을 했는데 이 하루 30분덕분에 마음이 많이 편하다.
모든것에는 시작이 반이라고 했나- 혹시 마음속 파도를 잠재우고 싶은 사람이 있다면 먼저 Target에 가서 마음에 드는 향의 초를 찾고 시간이 없어도 일단은 집에서그걸 켜보길 권한다. 눈이 저절로 스스륵 감기고 차분한 생각이 퐁퐁 솟을 확률 89%. ;)
Brazilian carnaval이란 향의 자주색 초는 내가 살면서 가장 잘쓴 $5였다.